You Make Me Feel Like I Am The Girl I Wished I Could Be

Alive with the Glory of Love- Say Anything
Annie's Song (cover)- Me First and The Gimmie Gimmies
Dance Anthems of the 80's- Regina Spektor
She is Beautiful- Andrew WK

No one has ever made me feel the way you do. I always looked in magazines and observed people through my lenses and trapped their lives in my mind so I could pretend they were mine, but now they are. Now I am living. Over the summer I had this plan to go to India to find my place in the world, to help me find a way to be in and of the world; then I found you. My dad always said that people who are good for us are the people who bring out the good in us and the best people for us are who bring out the things we did not know we even had within ourselves. I could never have imagined I could be the person I am when I am with you. You make me brave in the strangest ways. I adore you, je t'aime.

The Moment You Look and Know, Baby, You Are In So Much Trouble

Man- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Infinity Guitars- Sleigh Bells
Put Your Hand In My Hand- Lungfish
Tear You Apart- She Wants Revenge

I like you too much for me to be in anything but trouble. I'm too honest with you to be in anything but trouble. You're too perfect for me to be anything but trouble. This is all too good to be anything but trouble, but after all, my name is Trouble.

Tourture

Hard to Explain- The Strokes
Transatlanacism- Death Cab for Cutie

Don't you think I want to leave? I do. More than you could ever know. Things aren't as simple as they are in romantic movies, there are more ramifications, more uncertainties. I want to sure, certain. I feel that I am becoming so but you torture me with all of these wonderful ideas. Don't you think I want to wake up and see you? Don't you think I want to hang out with you everyday? Don't you think that I want to hold your hand while we walk around? I want to do all of these things and you make me feel like an hour is a century. I don't want to grow much older without you around. I just want you to understand how hard it is for me when you say such pretty things and I can't do anything about it right now. All I can do is promise to keep feeling wonderful things when I think of you and all I can ask of you is to feel wonderful things when you think of me.

Secret Letters- Erin Tobey
Folding Chair- Regina Spektor

So I was watching some rom-coms and dedicating some time to finishing a mix cd today. The last track of the cd is a song I wrote myself. This is the first time I've ever let anyone actively listen to something I wrote for them. I don't really like letting people know exactly what I think of them. This whole fear of rejection and low self esteem thing flares up and I just generally avoid having to deal with the idea that my expectations may not meet reality, as they rarely tend to do. I feel so stupid when I am interested in someone. I feel like I am too pushy or forward or bold. I feel like I pester. I don't think in reality I do this, based on things people say but I still get worried about it. I want to be sublimely happy and I find a guy who makes me feel this way, so I don't want to feel anything but that now. I'm not looking for anything forever (I'm too young for that) or serious right now but a guy like him could make me rethink that.

That Surge, That Spark, That Thing That Makes You Think You Could Be Falling In Love

Close To Me- The Fairways
Shape of My Heart- Noah and the Whale
Oh Yoko!- John Lennon
Kiss Me Deadly- Generation X

You make me see hearts and sparks and stupid, stupid things. I'm in so much trouble.

Dispite my best efforts I can't help but talk about you to anyone who will listen

I've just seen a face- The Beatles
Then She Appeared- XTC
Oh oh I Love Her So- The Ramones
Trolley Song- Judy Garland

I just can't stop talking about you. thinking about you. wishing that i could fold up roads and pull the edges of land like sheets of bed, pulling you closer to me. It's mildly retarded, but so am I when it comes to you.

drinking, talking, walking

I'm In Love With a Girl- Big Star
Don't Get Me Wrong- The Pretenders
Mayor of Simpleton- XTC
If It's Love- Squeeze

It's like I met you before or like I saw you in a dream because I'm too comfortable and happy for you to be a stranger. You're far to sweet to be strange.

When You Just Want To Say "Well Atleast I'm Not A Big Jerk"

I've had it- Black Flag
Small Man, Big Mouth- Minor Threat
Yelling In My Ear- Operation Ivy
*u** **u -- Lilly Allen

What.ever. AMEN!

Running, For Once, Makes Me Feel Better

Big A Little A- Crass
Art Star- The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Sleepy Head- Passion Pit
Take It Off- Ke$ha
Telephone- Lady Gaga Feat. Beyonce
It Was All A Dream- Notorious B.I.G.

Running off the blues. Running off the weight. Running off the woe. Go.

That Split Second When I Am Sure I Will Die Alone

River- Joni Mitchell
A Perfect Sonnet- Bright Eyes
Asleep- The Smiths
Moon River- Audrey Hepburn

No one will ever love me. I'm going to die here. Alone. Unloved. Fat. Ugly. Stupid. and Dead.

Dear John(ny Ramone): RIP

Cretin Hop
Gimmie Gimmie Shock Treatment
Beat On the Brat
KKK Took My Baby Away
Oh Oh I Love Her So

Here today, gone tomorrow. We still love you. Rest In Pieces.
....now I wanna sniff some glue....

We Were Under my Umbrella With a Wistle In the Rain.

Rose Parade- Elliott Smith
There Is A Light That Never Goes Out- The Smiths
Such Great Heights- Iron and Wine
In The Backseat- The Arcade Fire

I wanted to kiss you then. I didn't, but I wanted to. Maybe one day I will, but never under that umbrella. Never in that rain. Never when I was 19 and you were 27.

I Just Want People To Be Near Me (For Once)

The New Year- Death Cab For Cutie
In The Flesh- Blondie
All My Loving- Across The Universe Soundtrack
Just Like Heaven- The Cure

I need you so much closer. You might be trouble in the end but I'm willing to take that risk. I've always lived dangerously when it comes to the objects of my affection.

I'm Not Doodling Your Name In My Notebook or Anything, I Just Want to Do Stuff With You

I Just Wanna Do It With You- The Mr.T Experience
Sleepy Hollow- Kepi Ghoulie
Ask- The Smiths
Take Me Anywhere- Teagan and Sarah

Everyday I secretly hope you'll ask if I want to get something to eat. You make me nervous and I have no idea why. I don't know what I think of you, but I do think of you.

I just want to drive around the beach forever with my windows down and my puck rock on

Rockaway Beach- The Ramones
Banana Splits- The Dickies
Johnny Was a Soldier- The Adicts
Suburban Home- The Decendents
This Is All I Came To Do- Dinosaur Jr.

Raybans on. Music blasting. Waves rolling. It's heaven.

When I Think of Them (This Is the Soundtrack In My Head.)

Death of Butterfly- Puccini
Rowing Song- Patty Griffin
42- Coldplay
Hospital Beds- Cold War Kids
Keep the Car Running- The Arcade Fire

I love you. I miss you. I cry for you. Alone. Forever.

When I Feel So Frustrated I Can Barely Think

Add It Up- Violent Femmes
I Just Want To Have Something To Do- The Ramones
Paper Doll- Louis XIV
Instinct Blues- The White Stripes
No You Girls- Franz Ferdinand

I finally understand that line in "Screaming Infidelities."

A Perfect Movie Moment (When the Confetti Came Down at Secrets)

Don't Leave Home- Gabriel and Dresden
Digital Love- Daft Punk
Happy Up Here- Royksopp
We Want Fun- Andrew WK

Dancing. Smiling. Friends all around. Never thought I could be here. Never though places like this could be so much... Fun. My life is like a movie.

Relaxing To Music I Don't Understand

La Vie En Roses- Edith Piaf
Quequ'un M'a Dit -Carla Bruni
Les Promesses- Autour De Lucie
La Madrague- Brigitte Bardot

Someone once asked me why I love to listen to the French language when I am far from fluent, to this query I replied "because when I listen to French I feel as though I am reading the Sunday paper while having breakfast in my favorite lingerie as the sun streams through my kitchen windows. It makes me feel so film noir, like Humphrey Bogart will burst in any moment and take me into his arms. I feel as close to a femme fatal as I will ever be." To me, that is one of the best feelings in the world and only the French language can make me feel that way.

When It's 5am and You Really Didn't Want to Be Up.

Sleeping In- Postal Service
I'm Only Sleeping- The Beatles
I'm Sleeping in a Submarine- The Arcade Fire
NARC- Interpol

Alarm. Grunt. Sigh. Never Sleeping In.

Buying New Clothes,Thinking I'm Better off Single

I'm Lonely (But I Ain't That Lonely Yet)- The White Stripes
This Isn't It- Giant Drag
Your Kisses Are Wasted On Me- Pipettes
Bunny Ain't No Kind of Rider- Of Montreal

Too Busy. Too Distracted. Let it be simple. Let me be Single.

Infinately, The Hopless Romantic

Trolley Song- Judy Garland
I Wanna Be Loved By You- Marilyn Monroe
I Hear a Symphony- The Supremes
At Last- Ella Fitzgerald

Swell. Swoon. Sigh. Imagine. Forever.

Remeber When We Used to Dance Everywhere?

Disconnect the Dots- Of Montreal
Sweet Road- Animal Collective
Oh Mandy- Spinto Band
Sprawl II (Mountains Beyond Mountains)- The Arcade Fire

Dance. Crazy. You. Me. Frozen. Framed. Gone.

Its raining everywhere

Train Under Water- Bright Eyes
A Drive- Limousine
I Grow Like A Plant- Erin Tobey
Raining In My Heart- Buddy Holly

Limp. Low. Slow. Dragging. But some how Productive.

That Moment When You Sit, Stare, And Wonder What The Eff You Are Doing

Day Old Blues- Kings of Leon
The Recluse- Cursive
Rest My Chemistry- Interpol
Where Is My Mind- The Pixies

Space Out. Tune Out. Far Out. Away.

In a Perfect World, I'm Sure It Would Work Out

Me Vs. Mardona Vs. Elvis- Brand New
Everyone Needs an Editor- Mates of State
Ever Fallen In Love? - The Buzzcocks
Don't Get Me Wrong- The Pretenders

Not here. Not now. We can't be us. Here.

Walking To Posthouse In Lovely Weather

Sock Hop - All-Time Quarterback
Big City- Antsy Pants
Good Day Sunshine- The Beatles
The Boy With The Arab Strap- Belle and Sebastian

Sunshine. Cool breeze. Home-fries. Friends.

David Bowie Apocalypic Dream

Paris in Flames- Thursday
Greet Death- Explosions in the Sky
Five Years- David Bowie

Everything was on fire, even water. It was a fire I had never seen before. It wasn't hot, or red, or crackling and hissing like it ought to; it just burned everything. When the fire stopped it was a swamp. David Bowie met me a the reeds looking like his character from the cover of Ziggy Stardust, a soft and blurry, but not glowing. He looked at me and looked forward and I knew he wanted me to walk with him. As we walked we saw dead bodies, singed, half swallowed by the murky mucky swarm, faces frozen in horror like they were slowly drowning; I still didn't hear anything. The mud was smooth and slick like wet clay. By the time we reached out destination I was caked in it-- David was not. I found myself at a large southern style mansion. For the first time in the dream I saw green it was a gargantuan weeping willow tree; the mansion seemed dwarfed in comparison. We went inside and I heard snapping and crackling. David led me into a very classic black and white kitchen. An elderly African woman was frying chicken and began talking to herself about me as if she had known me a long time. It was alarming but somehow comforting. David took my arm and led me through the rest of the house. There were many rooms, more than could physically fit in the space. The rooms were full of children covered in mud, like me. After this tour, David led me back outside. We sat on a swinging bench and saw people moving around 30 yards away. They were disheveled and leaping upon each other in a writhing heap of blood and violence-- they may or may not have been trying to eat each other. Horrified, I turned away to look at David, who looked on. He looked at me, took a breath, closed his eyes and walked away. The people began to move closer. I begin to worry for my safety and the safety of the children inside. I step of the bench and turn to go back in the house when I feel teeth sinking into my arm. I think "They are going to eat me, I am going to die" and I fell over onto the grass knowing all of those children were next.

That Person Who Always Has to Complain About Something: Don't You Have Any Tact?!

I've Heard it Before- Black Flag
Yelling in My Ear- Operation Ivy
I Don't Wanna Hear it- Minor Threat
Don't Lose Touch- Against Me!

Grow. Lighten up. Change. (or) SHUT UP!

Just Then I Knew That Your Would Be My Friend

Never Knew- Rocket Summer
You and Me- The Beatles
Rose Parade- Elliot Smith
I Can Tell That We Are Gonna Be Friends- The White Stripes

Intimidated. Learning. Relieved. You're Human. You're My New Friend.

Suddenly Feeling Like I Want to Have a Party

Top of the World- Shonen Knife
We Want Fun- Andrew W.K.
Do You Wanna Dance?- The Ramones
Right Back Where We Started From (Cover)- Army Navy

Surge. Release. Laugh. Dance.

The Uncontrolable Urge to Drive Away Forever (And Look For Her)

The Past is a Grotesque Animal- Of Montreal
Pioneers- Bloc Party
No Key, No Plan0 Okkervil River
Born To Run- Bruce Springsteen

Drive. Hope. Wish. Dream. Forgive.

Every Song on the Radio Made Me Think of ____.

You Can't Hurry Love- The Supremes
Big Me- The Foo Fighters
Train in Vain- The Clash
This Old Heart of Mine (Is Weak for You) - The Isely Brothers

On. Sigh. Reminisce. Recall. Grimace. Groan. Off.

Drawing Tattoo Ideas On the Couch During LA Ink

Ghostbird- Redwing Blackbird
After the Goldrush- Neil Young
Rowing Song- Patty Griffin
The Wind Cries Mary- Jimi Hendrix

Birds. Theories. Pain. Permanent. Ghosts.

Waking Up Sad After a Lovely Dream

Please, Please, Please let me get what I want- The Smiths
Now At Last I Know- Fiest
Samson- Regina Spektor
I Can't Get Over You- The Queers

Lost. Dream. Win. Wake. Lose. Repeat.

Sentimental Moment Wearing Curlers on the Deck

Venus- Frankie Avalon
If I Knew You Were Coming I'd Have Baked a Cake- Eileen Barton
Didn't I- Patience and Prudence
La Madrague- Brigitte Bardot

Words. Curlers. Pages. Partly cloudy. 1960's. Bliss.

That Moment When You Realize You Were Worrying for Nothing (Kayaking at Sunrise)

Watching the Wheels- John Lennon
Merry Happy- Kate Nash
Wake Up- The Arcade Fire
The Dog Days are Over- Florence and the Machine

Paddle. Sun. Breeze. Splash."Ah-hah!" Smile.

Biking to Ocean Side Pizza

Summertime Boogie- Shonen Knife
Come Out and Play- The Offspring
Send me on my Way- Rusted Root


cheese burger subs. oceans. bays. tunes.