Secret Letters- Erin Tobey
Folding Chair- Regina Spektor

So I was watching some rom-coms and dedicating some time to finishing a mix cd today. The last track of the cd is a song I wrote myself. This is the first time I've ever let anyone actively listen to something I wrote for them. I don't really like letting people know exactly what I think of them. This whole fear of rejection and low self esteem thing flares up and I just generally avoid having to deal with the idea that my expectations may not meet reality, as they rarely tend to do. I feel so stupid when I am interested in someone. I feel like I am too pushy or forward or bold. I feel like I pester. I don't think in reality I do this, based on things people say but I still get worried about it. I want to be sublimely happy and I find a guy who makes me feel this way, so I don't want to feel anything but that now. I'm not looking for anything forever (I'm too young for that) or serious right now but a guy like him could make me rethink that.